Dreaming of dragons;
Contract you sign when you become an adult ;
I’m sorry if I ever accidentally kill myself, Ill try to make sure that doesn’t happen.
I’ve got it from here
I feel so bad for my roommate
He wanted me to go grocery shopping with him and the entire time I was super bitchy and unapproachable. I can’t stand it when people pay attention to the food I buy or eat. I can’t handle it. It’s none of his business.
And I realize that it’s a crazy thing to get super anxious about. I’m always hiding food and making it impossible for anyone to know how much I have or haven’t eaten…
I am going to try
I’m ending my sadness,
I am not ‘unfixable’
nor was I broken in the first place.
I’ve been stuck motionless in this pathetic state of mind
It’s time to change things.
Started with my hair colour (because a visible change will remind me). Next will be making the effort to talk to my friends more. I started talking to boys again, I even plan on hanging out with one on Friday. I plan to put myself together and feel put together. I will go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier. I have been smoking much less weed (although I have not been able to quit completely). I have been eating better. I struggle with the gym, I don’t like the people there… However I just have to tough it out until it’s warm enough to run outside. As for therapy… Ill wait a little while before deciding if I want to cancel or not.
I can do this, I have no reason to hide from life anymore. It’s time to start living again.